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Update [Sep. 19th, 2009|10:00 pm]
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Moving into a new apartment.. In the middle of the semester. But, at least i'll be out of this craptastic studio
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(no subject) [Jun. 8th, 2009|02:03 pm]
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Weee [May. 24th, 2009|09:07 am]
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Probably the most immature post I'll ever put on this thing, but every time I see this damn Terminator salvation picture, all I see is the Terminator holding a big ol metal dick. Seriously, who else sees it !?!

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Breaking news! [Apr. 24th, 2009|11:16 pm]
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Daft Punk is doing the music for TRON.

That is all

(holyfuckingshitomygodsFUCKYESSSSSSSSSSSSS *Explodes from excitement*)
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Rar [Apr. 19th, 2009|05:53 pm]
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So it's that time of the year again. Finals. Mix that with the fact that i've been sick for nearly two months (First pneumonia than something nasty called C. Difficile.. Go me), and you've got stress.. Actually, not so much this year as last year, but, still.

Also, i'm looking for apartments again. Which is a long, annoying task. Sigh. I wish I could live here:
http://sfbay.craigslist.org/eby/apa/1127266670.html
http://maps.google.com/?q=loc%3A225+Upper+Clifton+Street+at+Broadway+Terrace+Oakland+CA+US

It's LITERALLY right beside campus, and holy hell is beautiful.

Oh well. One can dream.
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Birthday present, Anyone? [Apr. 11th, 2009|05:44 pm]
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I know i'm a fool for packaging, but this is friggin awesome.

http://www.bevmo.com/Shop/ProductDetail.aspx?ProductID=28056

EDIT: I'm officially making a birthday wishlist. As it is my 21st birthday, I'm sure you can all guess what it's going to be comprised of.

http://www.bevmo.com/Shop/ProductDetail.aspx?D=calvedos&Ntx=mode%2bmatchall&Dx=mode%2bmatchall&Ntk=All&Nty=1&Ntt=calvedos&N=0&ProductID=259
or

http://www.bevmo.com/Shop/ProductDetail.aspx?D=Laird+apple&Ntx=mode%2bmatchall&Dx=mode%2bmatchall&Ntk=All&Nty=1&Ntt=Laird+apple&N=0&ProductID=3835

(I've got Jack Rose on the brain)

http://www.bevmo.com/Shop/ProductDetail.aspx?D=absinthe&Ntx=mode%2bmatchall&Dx=mode%2bmatchall&Ntk=All&Nty=1&Ntt=absinthe&N=0&ProductID=29192&No=10

Le Tourment verte is also acceptable (and cheaper), and has already given me many fun nights. If you company either absinthe with a bottle of champagne and sugar cubes, you will have read my mind and made my day.
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gahk [Mar. 31st, 2009|04:22 am]
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So, yea, I have pneumonia, and no it is not fun. Already spent some time in the hospital (getting 4 liters of fluid + breathing treatment +nebulizer, not to mention chest xrays, EKGs, CT scans, etc) Feel like utter shit. Of course it didn't help that the nurse didn't immediately listen to me when I told her to go for the vein on the side of my right wrist when putting in the IV. So, three pokes later and a blown IV (my arm has the most horrendous bruise) she finally listened to me, and voila! It went in with no problem.

You see, it happens everytime. I have a nasty combination of tiny, AND crawling veins. Which means they move when poked at.

Can't sleep at all because everytime I lay down, it feels like i'm halfway drowning. I still don't know why they discharged me so early.
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Monthly post [Mar. 19th, 2009|05:01 am]
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So I suppose it's time for my monthly post. I never really post anymore, frankly due to the fact that I currently have no life outside of school, and no one wants to hear about that. It's the same thing, over and over; work, stress, frustration, thoughts of dropping out resurfacing once a week, not caring, etc.

Been pretty sick the past two weeks. Started with the flu, which went full blown from a scratch in the throat to throwing up in 8 hours flat. However, it evolved to an infection in my bronchial tubes aka bronchitis with a side of a bit of mucus in the lungs. Doctor has me on Antibiotics, an inhaler and cough medicine with codeine. Getting better though; started coughing up white viscous sputem with flakes of blood, and now it's just normal ol phlegm. Sorry, that was probably disgusting.

I've probably have yet to report my dick of a downstairs neighbor. For awhile he was constantly banging on the walls, calling and cussing me out etc. It was all for tiny things, nonexistent noises I was making as I tip toed around the apartment, whispering in hushed voices. I even sacrificed grades and work time by forcing myself to stop working at 10pm.

Anyways, the tension reached it's zenith about 2 or 3 weeks ago, when, in the middle of the night whilst I was asleep he launched a full out assault on the walls. He was hitting them so hard that the shit on my bookshelf was vibrating. I became convinced that he was schizophrenic at that point, as I was happily asleep, thus making no noise when it happened. I had had enough, later that night I called the apartment manager and reported him. Haven't heard anything since, but I can tell there's alot of tension still. I met him in the stairwell a week ago and he had the most disgusting look of contempt on his face when he saw me. Honestly, I'm still a bit scared.

I just need to move the fuck out of this dump. It's a small studio, and by small I mean Japanese apartment small. I'm not a Japanese small person, I'm more like Russia; large, clumsy and crass. And all for a meager $850/month. Fuck that shit. I mean, I'm happy I'm not on the streets, and that I have a place to live, but I was pigeon holed with this one. The individual whom had previously agreed to share an apartment with me backed out the last minute when we were this <-> close from signing a lease, so I had to find another one in a week. This was the only one.

Socially, I've never been worse. The people, who only a year ago seemed to be close friends, strayed. Haven't hung out with anyone since Christmas break. Pathetic, I know. Everytime I get close to people and consider them friends, something happens. Like someone flicking a switch they suddenly vanish, they stop saying hello, stop inviting me to hang out, stop returning calls, etc. I hate it, but for how much I try, it never works. It never matters. I begin to have stupid thoughts, the ones where I wonder how long it would take for anyone to notice that I've vanished somewhere. I calculate and determined it would take over a month. The thought of vanishing somewhere has been tempting. Though seductive, it's something I never would do.

Life flickers in and out of focus, like a broken camera. Some days, it's clear and everything seems right and happy. Others, it seems like I am viewing life from underneath an ocean of water, so distant, unaware, quiet, and cold.

I should just stop it; this is why I never really post here. Because I end up typing stupid shit. Sometimes it just needs to be said. I would eventually explode if I didn't release in increments.

All apologies.
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Rawrg [Feb. 12th, 2009|02:15 am]
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So it's been awhile. Same shit different day, except..

Friday: This creep rolled up in his car on my way to class, kept asking me to get into his car (on pretense that he was going to give me a ride). Despite the fact it was pouring down rain, I said no. Thankfully I didn't, as he continued to pursue me, saying quite vulgar things (asking me if I ever had sex with a stranger, or if I liked to be ate out, etc). This went on for several blocks, so finally I dodged into the 7-11 and waited. Fucker didn't leave until over 20 minutes went by. Nevertheless, I'm still keeping an eye out for the white Ford Taurus that he was in.

Then tuesday: I was on my way back from the Legion of Honor (classical art museum), and on the 38L bus this older black woman went balistic on me. It started because the driver slammed on brakes suddenly and I bumped into the lady. She immediately started to wail on me, saying shit like "Step off you whiteass bitch", etc and tried to rip out my eyebrow ring. She succeded in that, partially. By time I got off the fucking bus, the ring was hanging on by a small sliver of skin, and I had blood pouring down my face. Of course, I had gotten off about 6 stops before the Montgomery BART station, so I had to walk the rest of the way.

Spectacularly bad week.
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Oh yes, this is familiar. [Jan. 12th, 2009|01:53 am]
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Blah [Jan. 4th, 2009|01:47 am]
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It's been awhile, but nothings changed.

If New Years is supposed to set the tone for the rest of the year, then I am in for a long, hellacious one.

Needless to say, My computer died (for good it seems this time), and I spent the night alone, bored and depressed. Without friends and without family.


On a technological note, I'm building my next computer. 4gigs of DDR3 1600 ram, 500gig HD, Factory overclocked Nvidia GeForce GTX 260 BE 216 896MB GDDR3 video card, ASUS P5N64 WS PRO WiFi LGA 775 NVIDIA nForce 790i Ultra SLI ATX Intel Motherboard, 700W SLI capable Power source, and a delicious Intel Core 2 Duo E8600 Wolfdale @3.33GHz, which has been benchmarked at performing better than the Intel's Extreme Duo and Quad cores, as well as being 30% faster than AMD's Phenom processor with graphic processing. Oh yea, and a 21.5 wide screen HDMI (1080p) Asus lcd monitor. Cost before tax? $1500. I love Newegg.
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What the fuck [Dec. 8th, 2008|11:00 pm]
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Seriously, WHAT THE FUCK AMERICA?! Handguns for the handicapped?

http://dsc.discovery.com/news/2008/12/08/palm-pistol-gun.html
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Another vague and useless entry [Dec. 2nd, 2008|05:51 am]
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[mood |tiredtired]

Stitches itch like a bitch. (Ha-ha, indirect alliteration), and I have to leave for class in 10 minutes. I should have called on account of an ER visit, but i'm already fucked as it is. if I go, I might actually have a chance at passing those classes.

And the fan breaks from the shit clogging the gears. Did I mention I haven't really slept?
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My night [Dec. 1st, 2008|09:33 am]
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From 3am until 15 minutes ago was spent in the ER. That is all. I'm going to get some sleep now.
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Holy shit [Nov. 30th, 2008|01:11 am]
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So, it's finals. Strange to think that the semester has gone by. It hasn't been my best, I must admit. Overall depression coupled with clerical errors and new registration systems, has resulted in me loosing faith in the school. Despite my best efforts, calling, emailing, etc I am, for reasons unknown, still labeled as a second year student, despite this being my third.

While in most cases, being a technical sophmore is simply annoying, it has downright screwed me for priority registration. Needless to say, I did not get into a single class that I needed next semester, and it's damn near a wasted one.

I don't know what to do. To be honest, I'll need to pull a miracle out of my ass to make it through these finals unscathed. Today was a wasted day, though I promised myself I would work, I got entirely overworked and pissed off about something stupid. Ended up wandering around Oakland for 2-3 hours.

Anyways, thanksgiving was nicer than I thought it was going to be. Ended up having it with my friends Brynn and John, chilled watching some movies (including one of people being murdered by giant raccoon balls called Pom Poko), played some Fable 2, and just had a good ol time. The best of times are always mirrored with the worst of times

Yea, i'm going to shut the fuck up now.
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ugh [Oct. 20th, 2008|09:21 pm]
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So this semester is not going so well. I'm blowing off assignments in bouts of lack of creativity, depression, and indifference.

I can only hope I can make it through this semester in tact.
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Tough choices [Oct. 4th, 2008|09:44 pm]
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It is a sad day for art, with the passage of the Orphan works act in Congress, and it being voted upon in the House, I have decided to take all my art off public domains. I apologize to the few people who followed and enjoyed my art. When I do reintroduce my art, it will have to be heavily watermarked.

I suggest everyone inform themselves of the bill, and protect yourself as an artist.
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some more art (click images to make proper size and proportions) [Sep. 8th, 2008|04:05 pm]
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School started back up; here some more art.

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Daily Paintings for 8/8/08-8/11/08 (click on images to enlarge) [Aug. 13th, 2008|02:26 am]
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[Tags|]
[mood |drunkBuzzed]
[music |I:Scintillia - The Bells]

If anybody is bothered by these not being in a cut, seriously, just say something and i'll start putting them into cuts.

Also, Photobucket has removed Bathory once already, so she may vanish again. Click on the images to make them larger! (Doing some fancy html now :P )

Continuing in my series of Infamous Serial killers; Jack The Ripper


Elizabeth Bathory (Aka the Blood Countess)



John Wayne Gacey

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Daily paintings for 8/6/08 and 8/7/08 [Aug. 7th, 2008|09:43 pm]
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[music |Terrorfakt- Mephisto (Antigen shift mix)]



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Art [Aug. 6th, 2008|06:41 am]
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I think I will no longer be posting art here; just way too many sites to catch up on. I'm not too sure about this decision, but for now I'm posting on http://heytutti.blogspot.com/ with fellow CCA-ers/faillustrators (our wonderful name for ourselves). You can view, but comments/posting are invite only, but that's not so bad. Plus, you get to see the oh so fucking awesome art of a few friends as a bonus! Trust me, they're a hundred times better than me.
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Just a quicky [Aug. 5th, 2008|08:34 pm]
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Life decisions. [Aug. 5th, 2008|12:40 am]
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I received my check from CHASE today, as well as an estimation as to what my monthly payments will be and how much I will have to pay back. Because I got shafted on the interest rate, it's not pretty. For a $40,000 loan, I will, In the long run, have to pay over $147k in the form of nearly 299 $500 installments. That's until 2035. Most of my life.

And now I sit here, wondering if I should cash it, or make sacrifices. Do the pros outweigh the cons?

The sacrifices: If I do send the check back, I'm looking at taking off at least a semester of college; but in all likelihood, a year. In addition to that, when I do go back, it'll likely back to the dorms; the one singular location that has managed to weigh me down more than Georgia ever did. I know it sounds melodramatic; how can a place do that?

It's possible. In a location where you have seen a person's body dead on the ground from a wound to the back of the head, inflicted execution style mere feet from your front door, a location where many have been assaulted, mugged, stabbed, and shot, somewhere that i've been assaulted personally. It is a place that is completely devoid of sane life after 5pm, a place where it's impossible to have a car due to community restrictions, yet the closest grocery store is 5 miles away. I'm not talking about Oakland in general, I am speaking of the area immediately around the dorms, in the middle of downtown Oakland. A city that never sleeps, and never expects you to sleep either.

And there are the dorms themselves; community showers where there is rarely any hot water, a laundry room that never seems to work, stoves that also never seem to work (a community kitchen as well), not having any working heating system, a constantly malfunctioning internet, dealing with the 90-120 other retarded hormone ridden, drama filled individuals who paint walls, shit in showers, knock down doors, break into other people's rooms, destroy bathroom stalls, and keep you awake at night.

And most of all, the physicality of the rooms. Think of a 5x7 room in which not only you yourself are crammed into, but another individual is as well, an individual you had no prior knowledge of other than the first moment you walk through that door, an individual that in all likelihood, you will loathe by the end of the first semester, and that they will loathe you too.

This is what I am looking at if I send the check back. There's the possibility that I will be able to afford an apartment with having a semester- a year off, but I will loose scholarships and Grants, therefore making tuition in itself a challenge to pay off. Not alot of people at CCA can even say they've received a grant from the NEA, but that is a grant I stand to loose if I do not go back this semester.

If I keep the check, I am looking at a lifetime of payments, for two-four years of sanity and the ability to graduate with individuals who inspire me to work harder than I've ever worked, and to progress like nothing else. The check in itself would pay for an apartment with which I would share with a roommate, bills, car payments, food, gas, art supplies- life essentially. And I do not have to spend it all, whatever is left at the end of the next two years, I can send back immediately, thus greatly reducing the overall interest gathered.

I am at a loss though, it is a decision that could effect the rest of my life. And it is a decision I must think upon.
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No phone [Jun. 27th, 2008|02:51 pm]
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I won't have a phone for awhile now. Just giving everybody the heads up. My AT&T POS died today and they were no help at all.. Long story. Anyways, just call my home phone if you need me, you guys should have it. If you don't, message me on myspace or email me.
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Arizona fetish ball photo dump. [May. 26th, 2008|08:04 pm]
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Here's a couple of choice photos from Arizona. Not safe for work (unless you work with a bunch of freaks). One set is a acrobatic cirque du soleil -esque show with a twist, and the other set is a couple doing Suspension (which looks fun). If you don't know what suspension is, you will soon.





















Note with this one, that is indeed blood running down her back after they were taken down.
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